Could i imagine i had Royal Wedding

Could i imagine i had Royal Wedding?Dream is belong to anyone, well okay, i don't need Royal Wedding just Loyal Wedding, sounds better for me :)

The world is busy about trending topic of Royal Wedding last week ( i wrote this on 2018, now is 2021), Wow! Congratulation Prince Harry and Meghan Markle, even i don't know well two of them, but Prince Harry was in my  childhood's brain, since kid i wished to have prince charming and i picked Harry (not because he is good or etc just because he is Prince, that's all). bahaha.. i knew his birthday too and never forget till now, what a memory!

The journey to famous island.

Okay, this topic makes me back to my journey to United Kingdom! The land that i ever mentioned to somebody when i was in high school, "one country i would visit for sure is England".

Mood Selection Mode

Good morning from paradise island, Bali, Indonesia. 

One friend of mine said to me one time," happiness or sadness can be chosen, i can see you Theresia, you can choose to be happy sometimes ". 

We had cocktails and beers for that conversation, i couldn't remember the rest, but i remember that i was in denial, i said, "What if i choose happiness around me, but the external factor of sadness is more than the happiness? what to do?" . And, i forgot my friend's answer, damn liquor! 

Last night, i was in moderate stress level, shown by smart watch (my birthday gift by best friend who is far away in the desert). The stress keep following me the next day, morning i had the urge of feeling, this gonna be bad day. Confusion. Need distraction. Crawling. Busy mind.

I decided to have walk in the garden around where i lived, sweat, that's what i need. Walking for about 20 min, 2.5 km, 2.446 steps and instead of having flat face, i got reminder by my self, "why don't you smile?" . Yes, during the walk, i smiled, who cares, i feel better when i smile alone with the breeze of the wind accompany me. Well, now i am ready to feel good. I choose my day gonna be. 

Time for photo of my self with my Batik design, Oedel Merak Kuning Set to show off that my day gonna be AMAZING!!

Love,

T

Numb in The Beginning 2021

 Hi virtual world,

Hope you all doing well, the reader wherever you are :) .

I got the stroke to write today, just because, I am feeling the numb. I guess numb still much better than pain, or both aren't better? If there is option, i prefer the numbness. I read in one article online, don't think that you are the special one, you are just an ordinary, then you won't work that hard to be special, just relax and enjoy whatever the journey that you are into now. 

I do feel, i am in the middle of waves, following the flow. I am a Styrofoam in the ocean. Nor confusion, nor sadness, nor happiness, just moving without direction. Well, hey yeah the beginning of 2021 already at this happening! Please show me more, can't wait to watch the entire show of my life in this year :)